Scared? Maybe.

Dave & I are back together, but you knew that. But we kinda joke that he's on a probationary period with me. CT asked me the other day how things were and I said good (like nothing ever happened) Dave agreed. He thinks things are better than ever. But now I'm confused/scared/curious....

First, he started telling me things like I"m going to wait to go to Law school until September. Cuz then we could get married and move to Michigan together. So I got all happy and excited about the idea. I liked the thought that he would wait for me to graduate, and we could have a summer wedding then start our lives together in Michigan. I would have a job, and he would have school and things would be just peachy.

Then yesterday happened. In a fit of rage, Dave was talking and we were headed back to his apartment and he kept saying...."our" apartment this and "our" apartment that. I'm pretty sure we don't live together. I didn't say anything to him about it, but I found it geniunely sweet. Then later that night we got to talking about us (again). He story had sort of changed. He was upset with his job and stuff. He told me he thinks that he should go to law school in January now. He started off by telling me this story about his friend who is in a long distance relationship. He's like I think (now) we could make it work. He's like we could talk every night and we could see each other (only) at spring break. Which sounds good in theory but I think it would majorly suck. Then i guess after I graduate I could go out to Michigan to be with him. But then he went off about how he hates his job here and if he leaves sooner...the sooner we'd be started on our life together. It was a sweet gesture for him to leave so we could get on with our lives and start making real money. He said he doesnt want us to end up in Bellefonte forever being a lifer.

Then he said something to me that changed everything. He said forever. Ok, if you didn't know Dave never let me say the word "forever". Then last night he said to me Abby I love you...FOREVER. I promise. Wish I could get that in writing. Did he just promise me forever?

I just hate when plans change. I'm not a spontaneous person..and I can't handle this. I like planned events. Dave just twirls my world upside down (not that its a bad thing). And last night when he kissed me in the kitchen I felt the chills again. Its just nice to know that some things are still the same.